17. [the hangover]

Oh Buckeye...


Buckeye and I only got to spend one night together this weekend. He had to get home to his daughter. It was a wonderful night. We cuddled, mostly, had brief sex (I just get him too damn excited), and went to church together the next morning. It felt like we were married. We haven't talked much since then. Damn him and his emotional issues! I'm just gonna give him space and time. He'll come around. He always does. Haha.

The bf wants to marry me. Like soon. Soon soon. As in by the end of the week. I CAN'T COMMIT TO THIS! He's joining the military as a doctor and wants us to be settled before he leaves. Umm...no?
 

CC pitched a fit this weekend. He's flipping out because I have emotions. Sorry I cried after my first ever car crash? He also pulled this "I wish you could legally drink" card. WHATEVER. You knew my age from the get-go. It didn't matter that I was 20 when you had me bent over at the Aria in Vegas, did it? My age was the last thing on your mind I'm sure when you had my pussy throbbing on your tongue...I've no time for games and I am not going to beg.
 We had fun but you are replaceable. 

A pot is flying me to Texas next weekend...so excited! A handsome Dr, not unlike my bf, but waaaay generou$$$$. Young, handsome, UBER successful...
The bf makes between 500k to 750k a year. This Dr makes between 1.5 and 3 mil a year, and invests, owns his own clinic, and is active in commercial real estate. Hold me.

I'm also going to a Ferrari event this weekend!  A friend asked me to be his +1...can't wait to freestyle again. Tips and tricks needed, ladies! :)

16. [cavities]

Azucars, I have had simultaneously the best and worst luck ever.

Bad luck:

I got in a car accident. Totally my fault. Well actually, totally CC's fault since the heels he bought me broke while I was driving and kept me from hitting the brakes! I told him and he told me to tell him I was joking. He asked how I was and I haven't heard from him since Tuesday...a bit miffed at that. More than a bit, actually. I think he thought I was going to ask him for money. So not the case. He's the gift daddy :) The bf is paying for all repairs - nearly 10 grand between two cars! Ah. So lucky.

Lawyerman never got back to me :(

Buckeye is leaving next week.

Mr. Boots poofed.


Good luck:

I've been hooking up with this GORGEOUS guy from AM and he's married, has a baby girl, is successful, yada yada yada, and he's started to kind of hint at spoiling me. It's purely sexual between us, even though he did have me hold his baby, which was hella weird for me, but if he's giving sugar, I won't refuse!

I found a new POT, an outrageously successful one. Verified by me and everything. He is looking for the executive assistant thing and is willing to pay for a car - all through the company, of course. Very excited. We'll meet up sometime next week and see how that all goes.

I also have a FORSURE POT in Texas. He's not the hottest, but he's funny and will give me 2k a month for seeing each other twice a month. We'll see how that goes.

Buckeye and I are headed off for the weekend to say our final goodbyes to one another. It's all so very bittersweet. Though I know we will be together someday, someday is not now, as much as I want it to be. We're going to spend the next few days cuddling and having an obscene amount of sex.

Hasta Luego, mis Azucaritas tan bonitas!


Sugar Senorita

15. [did it again]

Lawyerman asked for my phone number. I sent it to him. I still haven't received a call from him. I'll probably send a follow up email, or ask some random legal question to break the ice again. Maybe I can even ask him to proofread a story I've been writing...hmmm...


Buckeye and I reached a tentative peace in recent days. He openly admitted to commitment issues, et a deep and inexplicable attraction to me. I played the "too little, too late, moved on card" but SOMETHING about that man is like voodoo to me. I can't let him go! Ugh. Somewhere between silly texts and a picture or two, I ended up at his place, snuggling and laughing on the couch. I've never been as at ease with someone as much as I am around him. IT'S ANNOYING. My bf is an incredible man, but he has never stimulated me in the same way mentally and physically, even though he is "bigger" if you know what I mean. I adore my bf and he is the best man I have ever known, but he just doesn't do it for me the way Buckeye does. Even though sex with Buckeye lasts waaaaay less time than it does with bf (I have Buckeye cumming in 2 pumps, then another few minutes and he's done ;) ), and bf and I are closer in age, and bf treats me like GOLD, I feel like Buckeye will haunt the periphery of my mind, always.


We had sex twice last night. It's kind of funny, really. We had no sex while we were "dating", but now that I am official with someone (and neither knows about the other!), suddenly we consummate our relationship. What the fuck. There are too many men in my life for me to keep straight haha.


CC is spoiling the hell out of me for VDay. Work kept us from being able to see each other this week, but I am pretty sure I should be expecting some packages verrrrrrry soon...hopefully with the Loboutins I tried on and fell in love with.

CC is so easily manipulated. I love it. We shop, he raises an eyebrow at a total, I whisper in his ear about his heel fetish and how amazing whatever item would look on me in bed, he kisses me, and we go home and fuck. That man adores me and I adore him. Him and his perpetual cowboy boots. Haha :)

14. [you never know...]

Today I took the train to have dinner with a friend. They live a few hours away and I hate driving long distances. We hd plans for 4. I missed the first train and had to catch the second.

While I was on board (business class all the way!), there was a man seated a ways to my right. He was talking loudly on the phone. I could tell he was important, the things he talked about and the way he talked about them. I even recognized some of the names - big ones.

He would look over every now and again, mostly whenever I shifted. I decided to break the silence.

I complimented him on his cufflinks, and he gave me the website for them. He would continue to catch me eye and smile at me.

I asked if he was a lawyer. He said yes. I mean, he had to be. In a suit, some loafers, a pocket square, and a matching tie. No way he wasn't.

I told him of my own law school plans, and recent acceptance into a prominent one. He was impressed. We talked across the aisle, until he motioned for me to sit next to him. He asked me if I spoke Spanish. Tcha. He surprised me when he busted out with it! He was pretty fluent, and we continued our convo.

He told me about some big plans he had, some huge MILLION DOLLAR CASES and his plans for a new Mercedes Benz. This was a man of means, you could tell. He asked me about what I do. I told him I am a biologist and a writer. He asked me what I wrote about. I responded with my usual "society, philosophy, religion" shtick. He asked me if I wrote about sex. I clammed up a bit. I can be bashful sometimes! Haha. He then continued to ask if I had a boyfriend (technically yes), what my boyfriend did (eye surgeon/modelling), and what I do for work. I told him and he was so impressed.

He asked for my card (I didn't have one on me) so I gave him my info. He told me how pretty and smart and sharp I was, and how he expected great things from me...and how I was so gorgeous and he hoped my boyfriend told me everyday.

What do you guys think? I mean, he was clearly hitting on me...should I see what I can get out of it?

At the very least, I would have an AMAZING mentor in my field. I googled him. HOLY SHIT. He is a badass above badass. It was amazing. Intellect gets me wet and if I had know what I was dealing with, I would have gotten naked on the train, for real, but what do you babes think? Too risky? Go for it? I DON'T KNOWWWW hahaha.

also, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! <3

xoxo, Azucars!

13. [sweets!]

Today I met up with a guy from SD. He is interested in the sugar lifestyle, but from a more relation-shippy way. He wants me to go part time at work and he would supplement my income. He pulled out his wallet to give me a little sugar and WOW. He must have had seriously like 3k in 100s. All he had was hundreds! He's in real estate and he is FOINE. Tall, blonde, blue-eyed...ugh. So yum. And so slim. He has a great smile. He really liked me. Just being next to him and giving him a few little kisses had him getting visibly hard! Haha.

I googled him. He is LEGIT. He wants to take me to Aspen on Thursday. He is also willing to give me a part-time job, just to make sure I am okay. He would take care of me fully, but he wants to make sure I can take care of myself if our sugar well runs dry and the lust is gone.

He was impressed by how articulate and well-dressed I am. What can I say? I am a genius. Haha. I just know the power of some killer heels, a pencil skirt, French tips, and an education.

He also wouldn't make me move!!! :) My school is about two hours away from him. He would let me live out here while he worked, then we would go on trips together on our time off. I can't wait to see where this goes. So excited.

I think I shall call him Mr. Boots.

12. [just kidding!]

Today I had the worst day ever. It is only like 2pm. Anyway, this morning sucked.

Today I got home and there was a huge package from amazon.com outside. I opened it up of course! I was so curious who it could be from and what it could be.

IT WAS A KITCHENAID 70 PART STAND MIXER! I love baking so this to me is like giving a crack addict a mountain of coke.

I looked at who it was from. The note said "As you requested for your new place :) CC".

Then I remembered when CC and I were spending time together, I jokingly asked him to send me a kitchen stand mixer to my house.

HE REALLY DID. My day is made :)

11. [naturally.]

Buckeye flaked, yet again. Of course. He wants me, but he doesn't. I think he is just realizing that I am amazing and he will never find another girl like me and for that reason is having a hard time letting go. Whatever. He's cut off.

I'm now sitting in a hotel with CC. Today was lowkey, but awesome. I just got my own place, so he's sending me some gift cards to some really high end home decor places. He's also talking about giving me a job with his company. Now THAT would be an absolute dream.

We got a bit more personal today. I asked him about his wife. CC is married, albeit unhappily (aren't they all?). He has had affairs in the past. His last one ended because the woman's husband found out about it and made his wife call CC's family and tell his wife all about it. I asked if he ever considered a divorce. He said it was out of the question. He still has two kids (nearly grown) living at home. His wife didn't want to divorce for the sake of the kids. We all know that's bs. She didn't want to leave because of the $$$$ hahaha.

I don't get it. It may be hypocritical, but if my husband ever cheated on me, whoooooo LORD. I would go for the jugular. Everything he had I would fight tooth and nail to make mine. Hit em where it hurts. I'd also walk away with my dignity, at least.

CC says they'll see when the youngest one leaves if he and his wife patch things up, but things are not looking good.

I really like CC. I can see us being an item. Conversation flows freely. We're playful and fun. He is an amazing lay and loves going down. He's older, he's tall, he's lean, he's rich, he's reliable. What's not to love?

I'm gonna go wake up his snoring ass and make him make me cum again. Hasta luego, Azucars!


xoxo

10. [next to you]

I think the prospect of me possibly moving on and leaving permanently scared Uncle's Friend (now to be known as Buckeye) straight. He has completely pulled a 180 and is now making plans to come over tomorrow :) I think a relationship is pretty much imminent at this point.

CC and I are seeing each other Tuesday <3 I'm so excited. He always spoils me.

I met with a Pot yesterday and he was hella feeling me, but I wasn't feeling him. He's clingy and needy and I think he needs an actual gf to deal with that. Not this girl. Haha. Also looks nothing llike his pics. Go figure.

I have a few more possible guys, but we'll see how it goes. One is a software engineer (hot), one is in investing (hottest), another is in finance (hot). It's not the finding of SDs that is hard for me. I just can't fake affection. It would be so much easier if I could just dissociate, but I just can't. I think I'll blame Buckeye for that one ;)